what is my purpose
where am I going
was it all worth it?
the strength that i’m showing
is growing, day by day
as I try to make peace for my mates
the inner me screams and calls for grace

but I still just ignore it
pouring lager down my throat and
throwing caution to cure it
but it doesn’t equate

I’ve tried my best
to help you out man
but you won’t listen
so I’m out

I’ve exhausted all of energy
trying to remedy YOU
that It’s me who’s the enemy
man I’m just telling the truth

see the bitterest truth
is better than sweetest lie
and my persona outside of my mind
may come a surprise

coz when you hear this track
there’s no disguise

there’s no
"look at me smashing my life"

it’s just the demon inside
so where do you hide

forget it, it’s all in your mind
forget it, it’s all in your mind



I’ve been devoted to something
most of my life
and neglected the thing I need the most
someone by my side
someone by my side

every fling i’ve had
has either fallen apart
because of my love of the art
or because I couldn’t start to
love myself
So here is my broken heart
here is my broken heart

I’m not asking for forgiveness
or pity or more
I accept my responsibilities and
don’t blame you at all..
and blame

I was the fool that never
saw the wall I’d built around myself
and it all and no it ain't cool
So this hole is just something I fall into

some night’s I long for it all to wash away
and start again
choose a different path of which to pave and blend
empathy with the energy I have now
I’m done with making amends
and i’m done with making new friends

because even now as I’m letting my guard down
my pen is writing this all by itself
i don’t even have to think about it
and yes it helps

it’s funny it’s the only thing that saved my life
was music, if it wasn’t music i’d
have died, way back when on that night
it’s kept me alive, and I use it
and this may sound stupid but

now I’m in a predicament
I’m depressed as hell but these meds
won’t let me create so I suffer in HELP
it’s either take the meds and go back into my shell
or live my life messed up for a spell
so I’ve got a story to tell

while I still can
my name is Michael Curran
I’m a man of a thousand projects and
stand taller than any object around
and I’m devoted to this sound.

what comes next is us just falling out
forget what you think
it’s not what you know
it’s what you’re about
coz In my mind’s eye
I see it out